Its been almost 2.5 years

I have'nt cried, in that long. i like a good cry, i think i would not have considered myself a cryer up until a few days ago. It felt good, i felt like nice my tear ducts filling with warm tears. they began to roll down my face as some song about how to save a life, by the fray maybe, i don't know. i cry alot when the walls close in on me and its happening today. any way the nut house is weighing even heavier on my soul. I can't sleep at night, i might have the ability to sleep coming soon. I need a new job, now.
p.s. this is a picture of me at a weird concert where the artist said in a poem," if you got pain and you know it clap you hands." just like song when you are a kid, if your happy and you know it clap your hands. He was apealing to emo crowd. there were more boys wearing girl pants then there were girls wearing them. i did not stay for his show i went to the starbucks down the street. the good part of the show was, A pagents end they played. they are way better. i got pain and anguish may i clap my hands. i think i will.