In preperartion

I have been waiting for this chapter in my life for a very long time, atleast a year. Turmoil of that time is over and new turmoil begins. This turmoil much more mangable, enjoyable even. Preparing for the christmas season, this year it holds new meaning, a new beauty. I feel like I have been reborn, the kind where you jump back inside your mothers womb, the magic of The Gospel kind, the kind where you just finished getting cleaned up of all the labor fluids. I say christmas season beacause as soon as it gets "cold" in fresno, i am quickly reminded of jesus' birth, call me a capitalist, but its true. The story of Jesus evokes the embodiment of rebirth. I feel asleep last night with my favorite christmas song stuck in my head. Unfortunatly it gets stuck in my head year round, but there is some magic or chemical reaction when Mariah and cool air mix. It now gets stuck in there twice as much for sake of the season. It is amazing to think that next year at this time who knows what life will bring, i am really ok with that.